Communion

Im now nearly two weeks into this next season here in New Zealand. No news on my visa so they are still processing all the information and my beautiful body and medical things and how much they want this sexy piece of art in their country. But however this leaves me stuck and needing to bail out of this land and across to the lovely land of convicts called Australia. So ive got my flight into melbourne but the aim is to get up to Brisbane where a certain pair of handsome young lads will be waiting for me hopefully. So maybe 2 weeks and another birthday & possibly paddy’s day up in brisbane with Mark & Wes looks inevitable.

But so far, since leaving the lads, Ive had a really good 2 weeks. My intentions of spending  40 days pursuing God intimately by myself as i have felt called too. I spent the first week in  Auckland in Cam & Jennys house. They were off down in Christchurch so this left me with the house to myself & the Cat. So as the cat was the only company I had apart from the Trinity brothers we got on great. But this first week was all about initiating into the prayer and fasting without driving myself insane. So the odd movie was good to keep me going and they were used as great breakers. But if i look back over the past 2 weeks and list all the things that ive been reading about praying about and singing about the list would just go on and on. But the highlight and something ive been working on is my communication with God and not just God but the Trinity. Seeing that ive had so much time to spare and dedicated to this its freed me to really pursue this. 

Communion

Communion has played a huge part of the day and has always been the highlight. Daily dedicating a time to remember Jesus and his sacrifice and really dwell on the thought. Giving my full thanks has brought me into a huge appreciation of him. While ive been reading through the first couple of books of the old Testiment the relevance and appreciation to what Jesus has freed us from. All those laws and then also how he is the sacrifice is coming alive and real to me. The details and explanations about how the various types of animals and all have to be sacrificed and where and when and for each type of sin and why. The whole purpose of sacrificing to God is something ive never completely grasped or even looked into. This is because we prefer to look at the Grace, Love and forgiveness way more than ourselves and our sins and what were actually doing, where as Jesus has come and completed and finished this but we still need to thank and ask for forgiveness. Because we dont daily or monthly bring a sacrifice to the altar i think i forget how important Jesus is to me. Its all vary basic but getting the revelation and understanding has just filled me with such a huge appreciation and brought me so much closer to an understanding of my need and dependancy on the cross. 

Character & Nature of God

Im not sure what order these things have happened but I'm just putting some of them down in any old order. But this next one is Character and Nature of God. I'm still only scratching the surface but its hitting home. Going through the stories of Moses & Abram and the Israelites, ive been trying to get into their heads to see what they might have been thinking. What was there relationship with The Lord like? In their eyes how would they see God? In relation to the Character & Nature of God. Because God hasn’t changed we have put the trinity into One personality and then chopped out the parts we dont like, well Pete has anyway. But spending so much time in the word daily has been letting me get and overall and completely look into what The Lord must have been like. Yeah so thats a big one Im putting it together in my journal so when its more complete ill get it up here aswell.

In this aswell im exploring in how God spoke and related with the Old lads during there days. How he used to come and meet with them have a chat and then he leave them. With Moses, Numbers 12v6-8, how he would meet Face to Face now wouldn't that just be off the charts. But you find God coming & then leaving. So im finding that prity cool

Fear Of God

Now the Character & Nature of God topic has also been leading me down the Fear of the Lord area too. Which is something ive been really wanting to just hit home one day. Proverbs is full of little one liners saying how Fear of the Lord is “ the beginning of knowledge”  “the beginning of Wisdom” and how Fear of the Lord is “the foundation of life” “ is a strong fortress” So yeah for a couple of days for the first time i had a fear of the lord on me. The Old testiment is full of this fear as God was winning Battles and moving forward pursuing the land for the Israelites. But also the holiness that was required by Aaron & the levities in-order to enter into the presence of God. How God struck down Nadab & Abihu because they offered the wrong offering to the Lord. This is how important holiness was in the Old Covenant. So with Fear of the Lord an appreciation & desire for Holiness in the Lords eyes.

The Will of God

God’s Will is something that has been resurfacing over the past couple of months. Theres been a couple of verses Romans 12v2, John 6v38 & Mark 14v36. Im reading brother yuns new book living water and throughout the book he’s tearing down the western church and most of the time he’s got very good reasons too if were honest. But his view of just submitting and obeying to God Will and only God will and thats all that matters has just got me thinking about it again. Cause as a mindset sometimes i can get confused and get stuck in the middle. Ok theres so much more to uncover for this one before I get it down on paper anyway.

Other thing i find myself looking into are “how we are called not to be part of this World” “Devotion to everything we do” “God not revealing himself to some people & Jesus being revealed to only the people whom the father gives to Jesus? so thats means we gotta start praying a load more” The Trinity’s “Dynamic’s & Job criteria”

The whole aim of this season has been to get closer to Jesus and to spend more time with him and its so far been amazing and its getting easier as the days go on. and learning so much and experiencing so much about my king has just been lets say Brilliant. Im now in Tauranga, This is a beach town and the International House of prayer is in the area. So im Hooking up with them every morning from 8-12. Its basically a 4 hour prayer room setup with live music and an open sanctuary to-do your own thing. You can join in with the Worship or you can simply study the Word or just pray. Which is ideal cause i really wanna do my own thing and this helps. Cause having people starring at ya all day in hostels & Parks wondering who your talking to can be a bit annoying but ah well their loss right.

Well since i started writing this last night the news in is my Visa is good to go. There not gonna kick me outta here until 19th January 2010. Which is such a blessing cause today i was going to have to buy a return flight to Australia & a Temporary Visa for aussie which wouldn’t have been ideal for the bank account lets say. So that means i can stay here in Tauranga for the next 3 months and finish this season & then start earning some bills & start what my plans for the year.